Sitting with Myself
I am writing this blog after a year and hope to continue writing from now onwards. Lately, I felt that a lot was left unexpressed which made me feel overwhelmed. Maybe this blog was keeping me sane :)
With all the twists and turns in my life, the difference between how my life was going and how I would like it to be grew bigger and bigger. This growing gap invited a lot of personal turmoil. However, with every bad thing, there comes a good thing. And with this turmoil came a big reminder to myself of who I am and what makes me 'ME'.
The self that I relate with the most. The self that keeps me content and happy from me. The self that doesn't seek approval from anyone other than me. The self that makes me smile with the work I am doing, the life I am living, and the people I am spending my life with. The self that I can't compromise in the name of adjustment to a new phase of life. The self that’s my core and gives meaning to my life.
This self of mine loves to travel, write about things that are often not expressed, meet creative people, go to random events around art and culture, learn a craft/art, be financially independent & debt-free, try new experiences, not be questioned for life choices, live an independent lifestyle, stay connected with my inner circle, be loved, understand my patterns, grow, heal, live a healthy holistic life and not be defined by any relationship. This self of mine would love to keep me as my topmost priority. And won’t be happy compromising my core no matter what else I receive in return.
I could have avoided writing this blog post or expressing this unsettling feeling. However, I also want that no one would ever travel so far from themselves that it invites personal turmoil where you are fighting with yourself, asking day in and out Hey, Is this you? This is a gentle reminder to me and you to have clear boundaries with your loved ones and not do everything in the name of adjustment.
Did you ever felt this way? I hope you don’t. And if you did then please voice it out. Looking forward to reading your voices in the comments.
I have started exploring a visual way to talk about different emotions and feelings. Follow this link to check it out.
Take care :)