Have you ever wondered why you even exist in this world? Well, there are days when I certainly do. It's usually when things aren't unfolding quite like I had in mind.
This year, I had many of these confusing days, feeling lost in work and life. On days like these, I ask myself: If what I'm doing doesn't make me happy, what would? What kind of life would make me content? What is the ultimate aim of me being here?
Back in school, I played it safe, focusing on good grades without many extra activities. After my MBA, getting a good job was my definition of success. I always chose the safer path, the one that seemed likely to lead to success. Now, looking back, I wish I'd explored arts or psychology. I have started doing it now :)
When I see my life in retrospect, I feel these confusing days are blessings in disguise. Without them, I'd still be that cautious student following the crowd. So one day, I let my inner child make a list of things I might enjoy doing or learning without thinking much. Now that I know myself better and can hear my inner voice above the noise of society, I'm gathering the courage to try those things one by one (starting with pottery) and see where life takes me.
I'm still cautious, but on days like these, I'm more willing to take risks that align with my true self. This year, I made significant decisions, and people asked, "Are you sure?" I'm not entirely sure, but I know these choices bring me closer to who I am. I'm starting to believe more in destiny. I'm no longer trying to control everything; I follow my heart and mind, letting something bigger guide me.
I would still be making choices that most people would not get. And I would simply leave the questions with them without putting much effort into making them understand.
The idea to write this blog post came randomly to my mind this morning. I had this urge to share and write about these feelings. I hope one of you gets the courage to follow your heart with this post.
I would love to know your list of random things you would love to do. Share a random thing that you would like to try in your life. I am sharing mine in the comments.
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